I’ve recently seen a few films who have a character of a mother not so different from my own. I don’t want to spoil any movies for anyone so I wont say much about the films themselves just how I reflected upon them. One film in particular “August Osage County” was a film I could not get out of my head.
This film made me sad for my mother. Realizing how lonely her world must be these days. Letting years go by without even trying to repair a relationship with your children (daughters) is just mind-blowing to me. I also think how hard it must be for her to remain so angry and spiteful. It takes so much energy to be that way, exhausting.
I also found it interesting that it is my mothers daughters that she is estranged from. What is it that she sees in us that she cannot face? We, in my eyes at least have done what any mother would be proud of. My sister and I are both successful in our lives both in family and careers. Yet we obviously have let her down somewhere along the line, in her eyes at least. Or is it that we do not need her. But what is that need, that needs fulfilling?
Another interesting point, my mother has two sons as well. Whom she is fairly close to. They are less successful in the sense of family and careers. And I love them non the less. I guess you could say they tend to be more like my mother emotionally. Maybe she relates to them, and does not relate to us girls.
What ever it is I just want to learn from this and not repeat the behavior. I would never want to hurt my daughter in this way or push her away. Also I would never want my daughter to feel towards me the way I feel towards my mother. Which is mostly disappointment. Disappointment from the lack of ability to see what pain she is causing and life she is missing out on.


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